You're Not Alone
One of the hardest things for me to learn over the past few years has been to ask for help. It's part not wanting to be a burden, part knowing everyone is busy and part ego. But I have realized that most people do want to help and, quite often they've been through something similar. You do not have to go at this alone and you definitely do not have to re-invent the wheel. Ask for help, reach out. You will curb your own suffering and give someone else the gift of helping you.